seeing beloved Jia Yuen for the last time...

On Friday...
me, siew jun, soo yin, rou en, hui li, and yin yin went together with Vincent...
to pay our respects to our beloved friend...
when we arrived we wrote our names down and all that stuff...
Then...
they invited us to see Jia Yuen...

His face was pale and white...
he looked like a paler sleeping version of the Jia Yuen i knew...
but there was no sign of life...
it was then that it hit me...
I was REALLY never going to talk to Jia Yuen again...
not going to help him do his Peka Science...
not going to push him around on his wheelchair...
not going to ask him silly questions ...
not going to ever tell him how much he meant to me....

thats when the tears started pouring...
everyone was crying...
Rou En still couldn't cry...
but I knew she was very sad inside...

Then Jia Yuen's relative...
a chubby cheerful looking woman in her 30s...
brought us to a table...
telling us...
Jia Yuen wouldn't want us to cry...
he would want us to be happy...
This only made me cry even more...

She told us that Jia Yuen always talked about the nice girls in his class...
more tears...

Then she gave us sweets in a box...
She said "Yuen" give these sweets for us...
even more tears...

The world is unfair...
i thought...
Jia Yuen was so sweet...
He didn't deserve to die so young...
Even with his muscular dystrophy...
I thought he had a good 10 - 20 years ahead of him...

anyway his relative offered us alot of food and water...
I couldn't help but eat like a pig...
eating makes me happy...
me and rou en sort of comforted each other...
she's nice to talk to...

but one thing i realized...
in the end...
i felt sad for losing my friend...
but i did not regret anything about our relationship...
i FEEL i had been a good friend towards him...
Especially in his last week...

Me and cheryl had helped him do his Peka Science...
as he could not write...
He gave us a paper frog each in gratitude....
Isn't that sweet??

and on wednesday...
the last day i saw him...
i did say goodbye to him...
though I didn't know that this goodbye...
would be the last and biggest goodbye...

At around 11 sumting i think...
Xian Ting and her dad came to pay their respects to Jia Yuen...
then...
we had to say goodbye...

I looked at Jia Yuen's face for the last time...
or so I thought...
and more tears came out...

Then we all walked together toward the car...
Me and Rou En comforted each other...
but i think it was more like Rou En comforting me...

Eventually we stopped crying...
but we still felt sad for our lost...

at home...
Hui Min called me...
and asked me to go to see Jia Yuen again...
but this time with her, Shaniera, Jarrod and Kadri...
Abigail couldn't make it as she had duties...

Then...
Kadri bailed on us as he had duties too...

Jarrod was the only guy in a group of girls...
AGAIN...

So we headed out to see Jia Yuen...
We arrived at about 8 30...
and I saw him again...

I found out how he passed away...
Apparently...
he fell down on Wednesday at the school foyer...
The students panicked and took ages to get him in a car to send him home...
Assuming he had sprained his ankle when Jia Yuen complained of pain...
His parents made an appointment in the hospital for Friday...
He was sick on Thursday and didn't attend school...
then later in the night...
Jia Yuen felt extremely hot...
His parents panicked and sent him to the hospital...
But it was too late...
Jia Yuen passed away on the way to the hospital...

and now...
he was going to be cremated in an hour or so...
then thrown into Port Klang i think...

This time...
when I saw Jia Yuen...
none of us cried...
I suppose the shock and grief are gone...
and has been replaced with joy...
because now...
He's in a better place I think...
he was suffering too much on earth...
This is probably best for him...

And this group of people...
like me...
did not feel any regret with the time spent with Jia Yuen...
Jarrod recalled playing with Mahjong paper with Jia Yuen or something like that...

We were sad...
but we were more happy for our friend...
and i hope he remembers us up there...
or wherever he is now...

May you rest in peace Jia Yuen...