GOD LOVES ME

"You Raise Me Up"

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

Bla dont think im a retard for posting this online but they told me before that by sharing, i can spread the God too. Maybe i can touch some people's lives just like Priscilla's testimony touched me.

This is a message I sent to some people.

Between Gloria Su, Priscilla Edna Moreira, Alvin Teoh, John Jonathan Paul, Cheryl Anne and You

Christine Kuan June 9 at 1:04am

hiiiii i'm sorry to bother you but i really feel like telling you this wonderful thing that god has given me...
no i did not receive any of those gifts of the holy spirit or something like that, what i got,to me, was even better. it was freedom.

you see, i was suffering from this mild case of obsessive compulsive disorder in which i fear dirt, dust, germs etc. and i didn't really realize it before but this fear was really keeping me away from god. not only did i stay away from things that i thought were dirty but i could not touch my own grandmother without washing my hands afterwards. when my grandma had to sleep in my room and she touched my bed(which is my most sensitive spot in my OCD) I hated her so much. If i lie on my bed without bathing, i just wouldn't be able to stand it. I would have to wipe my bed with wet hands at least to rid it of its "dirtyness". Really a simple thing like sitting on my bed wearing my "dirty" school uniform would tear me apart and make my whole day miserable. There is a boy named yeap keng han in my school and everytime i saw him i feel disgusted and i will avoid him even though my conscience tells me what a retard i am. But i really could not control it.

I had this problem since i was around 8 and instead of trying to overcome it, i just ignored it and accommodated for it by bathing right before bed, washing my hands often, altogether avoiding dirt. It became a very normal thing for me.

Then during R.O.C.K. camp, somehow when priscilla was telling her story about overcoming her fear of heights, i started crying and i really didnt even know why. Then i couldn't stop even though i really wanted to because it is really embarassing when i am the only one in the room who is crying over ridiculous thing. Then i thought about my fear. My OCD. Later I went back to my room with gloria and priscilla and i told them my story and then i realized that this stupid thing was really was blocking me from God. I was letting my fears control me. Then God set me free. I knew i wouldnt have to suffer anymore. I knew that i must overcome my compulsion not for me, but for God.

Actually when I came for ROCK camp, i seriously thought that I was pretty much healed because I changed my character drastically after attending the first ROCK camp. But i was wrong. I think I was still missing out on the main point. I don't just need a little bit of God in my life. I need God to be the center of my life. Because when I saw the missionary people video thingy, I knew that there really is no happier or better thing i could do then to share in God and to be with God and that is exactly what I have not been doing my whole life.

Today, after sweating and playing the whole day, i lay on my bed, without bathing, and i know that i am free. Really, i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I can think about nothing but God and I really want to get closer to him and do more for him. But i really have no idea how. Actually for a while, i was really considering just leaving school as soon as i could to go out and help people just like that new zealand thingy but then today after asking my dad if i can visit a refugee camp and an orphanage, he told me it is okay as long as i dont turn over and become a social worker because i will not be paid and cannot be rich that way. I really dont know what to say to my dad because i do not want my life to go that way and i cannot see myself happy with all the riches of the world anymore. Now I realized that only God can make me truly happy. I'm also scared that i lose my fire because i have been to camp before and i know that after a few months, i would forget everything i learnt and felt. i think i really need guidance...

Gloria and priscilla, you guys really i mean really made this camp one of the most memorable experiences in my life because talking about faith is just ssoooooo wonderful and i love you guys so much and thank you so much for listening and for helping me as well as sharing your own lovely experiences^^

To alvin, please dont give up on us... we really need you and i can't explain how awesome you are in words.

john, you really dont know how much you telling me that crying is just a manifestation of the holy spirit meant to me because i seriously thought there was something wrong with my hormones or my brain was retarded or something...

Thankyou guys so much and praise the lord! ^^

Charity club

Stock List (arranged based on price) * updated

No.	Products	Quantity	Price (RM)
1	Notebook - Retarded	32	2
2	Pencil Set	10	2
3	Folder	4	2
4	Heart Shaped Box	246	3
5	Soft Toy - Small	16	3
6	Pen Set	15	3
7	Document Case - Slim	22	3
8	Laundry Bag	13	3
9	Notebook - Normal	17	4
10	Document Case - Broad	9	5
11	Paper Mate Set	17	5
12	Soft Toy - Medium	17	8
13	Motivation/Edu Set	12	8
14	Soft Toy - Big	11	15
15	Cat	50	Donation >2

Another career test

Best Occupational Category

You're a CREATOR

Keywords

Nonconforming, Impulsive, Expressive, Romantic, Intuitive, Sensitive, and Emotional

These original types place a high value on aesthetic qualities and have a great need for self-expression. They enjoy working independently, being creative, using their imagination, and constantly learning something new. Fields of interest are art, drama, music, and writing or places where they can express, assemble, or implement creative ideas.

CREATOR OCCUPATIONS
Suggested careers are Advertising Executive, Architect, Web Designer, Creative Director, Public Relations, Fine or Commercial Artist, Interior Decorator, Lawyer, Librarian, Musician, Reporter, Art Teacher, Broadcaster, Technical Writer, English Teacher, Architect, Photographer, Medical Illustrator, Corporate Trainer, Author, Editor, Landscape Architect, Exhibit Builder, and Package Designer.

CREATOR WORKPLACES
Consider workplaces where you can create and improve beauty and aesthetic qualities. Unstructured, flexible organizations that allow self-expression work best with your free-spirited nature.

Suggested Creator workplaces are advertising, public relations, and interior decorating firms; artistic studios, theaters and concert halls; institutions that teach crafts, universities, music, and dance schools. Other workplaces to consider are art institutes, museums, libraries, and galleries.

2nd Best Occupational Category

You're a RESEARCHER

Keywords:

Independent, Self-Motivated, Reserved, Introspective, Analytical, and Curious

These investigative types gather information, analyze and interpret data, and inquire to uncover new facts. They have a strong scientific orientation, enjoy academic or research environments and prefer self-reliant jobs. Dislikes are group projects, selling, and repetitive activities.

Every career test i take says the same thing, but nothing I'm supposed to be doing fits my dad's criteria of "Accountant"

Do i seriously suffer a mental illness?

I saw this sign today staring out at me through the window of that art attack shop.

(click for bigger view)

I will translate all to english now for those who cannot understand BM...
and because i hate BM.
xD


Characteristics of Autistic People:

1. has 1 person conversations

anyone who spends 5 minutes with me will realize that half the time, i am talking to myself about something or other.


2. doesn't show interest

unless it's something shiny, most of the time, if you tell me anything, i will just look blur and everything is going in one ear and coming out the other...


3. copies actions

how often do I play this dumb game?
VERY OFTEN.


4. I DUNNO WHAT THIS IS IN ENGLISH THEREFORE I DON'T UNDERSTAND

somemore the light is blocking in this picture.. hahahha...


5. Flaps hands

Ohmigosh like how many times a day do I attempt to fly????


6. Laugh berdekah-dekah(like a lunatic) at unsuitable times

Okay twilight, new moon and true blood aside, has anyone seen me in class where i suddenly start laughing to myself for no apparent reason?


7. Likes to spin things

One of my favourite pastimes! I play with my baby cousin's balls more than they do and anything that can spin, i will spin.
eg, cups, toilet rolls, bottles, pencils...


8. No eye contact

This only applies to me half of the time.
If you're talking to me about boring shit though, of course I'm going to stare at that speck of dust that just flew by your head...


9. hates change.

Also half applied.
Everyone hates change and so do i. But I guess autistic people are extremely intolerable to change?


10. Talks about the same thing repeatedly.

If you have met me, you may find that I tell you the same story that happened to me today about 5 or 6 times. The number is small because by that time, normal people would have asked me to shut up and go away. This somehow breaks off my talking streak.


11. Doesn't play with other people.

Okay this is not true because I love playing with everyone. :D


12. Only joins groups if helped or pushed(not push as in push you off the building).

Well this is half true. If I know people there, i will join stuff in a flash.
but if I don't have a teman, you will never get me joining any type of group stuff...
I'm scared of people..?


13. Shows liking for adult's hands.

If you sit behind me in mass, you will notice i'm playing with my mother's hands the whole time. Except when I'm clasping them together in prayer la but anyway, i hold my mum's hand a lot. and my dads too. in car they dricing also i hold their hand to increase the chance of car crash. hahahaha. don't catch me, police! xD


And those are the 13 unlucky signs.

And out of those 13, I have 10.5 matched characteristics.
EGAD! I COULD BE AUTISTIC.

Either that, or this sign is very retarded.

OR OR OR...

I'm just christine!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
hahahhahahahhaa

look it's the laughter again...

:OOO

Cheryl's buh bye post. :(

So I spend weeks and weeks poring on cheryl's going away present which I told her was the most awesome present ever which is why her birthday present sucked so much.

NO PRESSURE.

It started with some scrap wood that my dad got from Ikea.

I covered the holes with cardboard...


eeeeeeeee so ugly...


shit some kid is going to get electric shocked!

Psst pstt.... CHERYL!


a lot of wrapping paper later...


so what did it look like in the end?

and what was the final verdict?


CHERYL LOVED IT!


woohoooo!

I don't care if she's lying also, i think it looks awesome. :)

anyway...
finished product.

DOLL ROOM. with no dolls. xD

Watch legolas.



Meant to be tv lol...

There's a musical box that plays memory also.
P.s. that's the song we sang for malam bakat...


Side views...






and came with something I drew for cheryl...



hahah it looks better upside down...



real way looks a bit fake...

oh well...

lallalalllala


now all the sappy things.
(feel free to skip because even looking at it makes me bored. :) )

Note from facebook cause I'm lazy to write 2 things...

Dear Cheryl,

I have no idea where to start.

I just know that I love you and I can't believe I'm never going to
sing with you in the corridors;
play intersection points;
laugh about fruits and veggies;
sms you about hot guys;
give nicknames to all the people we know;
play harry potter and lord of the rings role playing;
play harry potter, race car driving, flicking paper, writing on walls, ring ring hello and other charlie stuff, blowing hair, etc, etc during school exams...(now my only play mate is the dustbin.... :( );
go on toilet adventures;
kacau our favourite teachers like rozeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hohohoho!, usha, norhafizah, nora, jeet, and blablbalbalablabla...;
play other dumb games with you that no one else but you would even consider playing like magical unicorns...

there are so many more things but my attention span is wavering...
actually I'm halfway typing this while smsing you...
and I kinda forgot what i wanted to say so...

you know i think the reason I couldn't cry just now was really because when I hang out with you, I'm just too happy and it's only when you're gone that I remember.
I really cannot even begin to imagine school without you.
The 2 weeks that you went to australia were probably the saddest weeks in the whole of my form 3.
Even studying with you for that idiotic PMR was beyond fun.
Without you, how would I remember about kelabit bario, the hot rentap, PuhPuhNeKeDeLeFeBe, dcckkl, every year's sejarah chapter 1 & 2 topic because you would repeat those the most, and all the other random memorizing methods...
You will always be my ding dong and I will never replace you la.

I scared I write too much now and you get scared of the words.
hahahhahaha.

You know actually, I realized though, it's not like I'm not seeing you again.
It's just that I wont have you all for myself and every single second of the day anymore.
It's just a sudden change from seeing you every freaking day of the week to not until june.
BY THE WAY. YOU MUST COME BACK FOR CHEER AND MALAM BAKAT AND ALL THAT CRAP TOO.
or I will personally take the cheapest air asia flight to melbourne and slap you.
which wouldn't be too bad really...

ahhhh i forgot about your word phobia again.

You know what, if I have any more "sentimental" things to say to you, I'll just write you a letter because being emotional is really draining. xD

I have the most fun with you when I'm just doing nothing and being myself.
I'm never ever bored with you and to summarize it all...
I love you so much and I'll miss you.

Ooo! Ooo! I forgot.

I wrote something for you while studying sejarah before PMR that time.
Because I thought of you then and I have a really short attention span... hahahha.

OKay damn I cannot find it because i wrote it in abi's starfish book and the other day i showed it to bee and i left it downstairs and it's damn dark now okay.

SO I WILL JUST WRITE YOU A LETTER! hahahahha
then i can use fancy paper and make it pretty and you can frame it just like you will frame my drawing right? :)
hahahhahahha okay buy buy now. :)


~remember me always, Christine.~


Huhuhuhuhuhahhahahah.

Cheryl is too awesome to be summarized into one blog post however long it would be and frankly, I'm lazy. :D

if you want to know how much I love cheryl, just see the way I whack her with love. :D

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSH!